| i really dont even feel like writting this right now im just completly down..everything fucking sucks and its my birthday and my dad who hates me refuses to celebrate it with me..my fault i guess  
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| wow i have not updated in so long hmm let me think about what has happend in the past idk while? i started cutting again i dont even know what happend maybe it was my dad telling me im not his daughter anymore and kicking me out of his house or just the stress of everything going on. i fucking hate so many things right now i almost starting going back to drugs again but im trying to still fight my addictions which is hard im going crazy in my own head. i get these like i dont even know weird out of body things where i cant feel my whole body and my vision goes all black and i just basicly pass out but am still awake?! i dont know its so weird but its so hard to cope with all of this stuff i had to start cutting again i just need somthing to make me stop...ughh   
  
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| so i guess everything is ok with me and my boyfriend im over tht whole cheating thing. but im so sad because last night he got in a car with his bestfriend who was drunk and they crashed. he got alll banged up and got his leg broken. drunk driving is so fucking bad i mean i used to do it or whatever but this draws the line if i lost him in this accident idk what the fuck i would do. ugh this just suck lately
  
  
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| so want to know what i hate..CHEATERS. that is the worst thing you can ever do to someone. i am so fucking in love with my boyfrind and he cheated..the worst thing is with one of my bestfrinds. that is so fucked up. he was drunk i guess but i mean it was the day after so he was still a little drunk but he was sober enough. i dont know what hte fuck to do i just cant think of him the same. ughh fuck boyfrinds and fuck cheating.
  
  
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| yeah so i havnt writtin in this for like ever. i feel as if i should be writting in this. whatever. so i ahve decided that theripists are fucking redicilious. For people who have one you prob. agree! mine is so fucking retarted. Her name is molly which drives me crazy (no offence to anyone whos name is molly). she is so goddamn nice i know what you people are thinking but i mean its like too nice that i cant even be myself and be like yeah i do drugs alot and drink and cut and blah blah blah. FUCK THERIPISTS! they really dont know fucking jack shit.
yeah i felt like i had to get my point out about those fuckers.
  
  
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